The Meaning Of The Life

I have been looking for years the meaning of the life. Diferent places, different people, everything was different for me. And for the first time in my life I was happy. I was happy for not knowing anybody, I was happy to be a lonesome man in this world. I'm not looking for any friend 'cause after all, everybody walk away after they don't need us anymore, they smashing our heart to a million pieces as if we were just a foreign to them. And so, I don't understand the life and I'm looking for the meaning, why all those
?things happened? why all those things happening? why still
?If life are beautiful, why do people ruining them

I have been searching everywhere the meaning of the life, and
still, everything is painful, hard to fight. People are still in the same situation. She can't find her way back as I'm. He can't stop feel the sadness as I'm. My heart are still beating, the same as yesterday. Life are still cruel the same as people, those people that I have seen everyday, every second in my life. Cruel people, mean people. The
.same as everything in this life

.And I'm still looking for the meaning, the meaning of the life