Xandra

Rosy lips. laughing eyes. long neck.
You notice those little thing when you are in love.
Met her in a pizzeria, pretty bad one actually.
Tall. Touchable. Kind.
You notice those little things when you are in love.

I begged weeks for her, but it was all worth it in the day she had agreed.
I took her to the sea. It was beautiful and attractive, like her.
I remember the first time I made her laugh that day, when she asked me what I want to be.
"A pizzeria worker."
"Seriously?" she asked.
"No. It's just for me to spend more time with you."
And then she laughed… and I just knew it's meant to be.
Her eyes were deeper and bluer than the sea.
You notice those little things when you are in love.

A day later, she called me, asked if I want to go to a party with her.
"But I don't know anyone there." i said. Actually, I wasn't worry about this. I just planned to surprise her today with two tickets to the new concert.
"Don't worry, you know me. Besides, my friends will surely respect my first boyfriend."
When she said that, I was ready to jump from a roof for her.

"First?" I asked in the party.
"yep." she said. She looked lovely that night, her blue dress made her eyes look bigger and her short black hair looked beautiful.
"I don't believe you." I laughed.
"Fine. Come with me, I need to show you something." she said and run.
I found her on the roof of the house, staring at the sky. Her eyes were the reflection of the stars. I smiled. I couldn't stop watching her.
"Sit down" she said when she saw me.
I sat and asked, "What do we looking at?"
"Wishes," she whispered. "Thousands of wishes. Up there," she pointed on one small star, "this is my wish."
"How can you be so sure?" I asked.
"You just feel it. And it stays up there, forever."
I leaned on her. She was worm and her mouth was open in a smile. You notice those little things when you are in love.
"Your wish is beautiful." I said, even though i had no idea what she wished for.
She hold my hand. "Your palm is so big.." she said. "Sorry. I notice those little things when i'm with you."
She didn't even know what she have said.
I stared at her, couldn't take my eyes of her, and suddenly my hands went tighter on her wrist.
She closed her eyes, and my dream finely came true.
Her lips were soft on mine. I couldn't breath, but i didn't need to. She breathed for me.

I met with her almost every day. And every day was amazing. She was the one that i was meant for.

and then the car came.
And the tears…
and the anger..
and the fear,,
and the loneliness..
the lived with her death.

And me? Well, in simple words –
I cannot notice those little things anymore.