they call us jumpers

he held a gun to brendon's head and after the silence fall on the audience, he talked.
"this is a message for the jumpers. actually, for one jumper. the girl who taught me what being a jumper is."
he looked right at the cameras as he continued "i need you to know i intend to jump . higher then you ever have . i'm sorry if it means you are going to crash with me. but we are jumpers. one thing that i'll never forget you taught me is that the fear of jumping is what keeps us on the ground. you were right when you said you can only face this fear after you lost every single thing that held you. that's the meaning of being a jumper. accepting the fall that is doomed to come anyway and still jump as high as possible. even higher than that. humans named people who wanted to die and decided to act on it jumpers. we are not that different . we are people that know we will die. just like every one els on this planet and decided to act on it. to live. to no extent at all. with no shame or fear or regrets."
he pushed the trigger but nothing happened "it's empty dude" he said with a smile " i just needed the stage for a second."
he turned around to us still smiling " i hope you will enjoy the show.. sorry for disturbing and thanks for listening.. if it will ever get to her, hopefully in time, i will be the happiest man in the world."
and than he was gone. the pretty blonde lost guy. i wish i knew why he was so sad, so driven.