Black receivers

Why do i find love,
Where love is just my own blindness.
When will your light, shine upon my eyes?
My black receivers, see only black.

Black with arbitrary lines
That may represent the outside
But the future that's in my head
Is my Achilles' heel

Those black receivers
Who to them, i owe my sight
Are just part of unstable loop
So i close my eyes

In the darkness that i myself wanted
I saw a mirror
But still empty space with empty words
I saw nothing but my thoughts