my punishment

I wonder if you know, darling
What it makes me feel like
Every time you keep me hanging
I just keep on waiting
For you to turn your smile at my way

It takes time to realize I’ve missed my chance
But I hold on to the thought of you everyday
It hurts badly before I go to bed
But it’s only inside my head

Seems like I’ve done it again
Falling in love doesn’t get easier with generation
But I have a notion
I haven’t learned my lesson yet

It must be fate
To be this miserable and yes
I hold it with grace
It must be my punishment
For the way I treated you back then